We Can't Reverse The Time!!!

++That's Stupidy of Me!++

Last night, I really eager to check my email. When I see my inbox, this appear and make me happy plus extremely frustrated:



That time, I felt stupid enough because I late checking it! So that I lost RM1500 ticket to Youth Engagement Summit(YES) 2009. I tried every every way to get the ticket for YES2009... Then I gave up because I know I'm not one of 5oo peoples from South East Asia that win the trip to YES2009. Then I read newspaper and I noticed that 8tv have 2 tickets to catch up. So I joined it and the winner will be confirm by phone call. So I wait and wait but I don't receive any phone call. So I just forget it. Then when I open my email, I realize that it's too late because the date to collect the pass is over. So stupid!!!! I lost RM1500! Nothing can do! Just accept it! The other side, I'm a bit happy because I know that I win the competition.



It's over now but for sure very frustrated when dreaming of Donald trump and Dr. Mamphela Ramphele in front of me!!!! I'm so careless! But time never change.....

Life Synopsis: Part 4

>>Life is So Complicated<<



Sometimes, I hate my family without any reasons. I don't have idea why i do so.... It's so stupid when we hating our family without any reasons but I do hating my brother, sister, father and my mother sometimes.... I guess this is because the pressure that they gave to me. My father, always busy with his work and no moral support to my study unless MONEY! That's all... Then he makes problem to my mother about his scandal (stupid bitch slut). My mother, keep crying because of my father then fighting! But she's very strong and patient. I always stand by her side but what makes me hate her is, she's always don't understand me. We always have problems because of misunderstanding. She keep blaming my dad because make my life so easy and she said, I must know how if we're poor. Gosh, what she's talking about? I thankful enough with my life! Of course everyone want make it easy rite? Money and urban life? Come on! I'm not that orthodox... Please don't keep explain about their teens life because it's completely different from this century.

Hurm, my brother.... I don't really like him because we're vice versa! Seriously, I dont really know who is he? What I know is just brother. We don't talk so much since I was a little boy. My lil sister, fuhhh.... she's damn it rude! How come she had that outspoken mouth! Macam cibai!!! Screaming again and again! Then cari pasal ngan org lain! Thats how she do it!!! My old sis, she'll married to unlikable person. My parents dont really like it but its up to her as long as they're not disturbing my life.....

See, how complicated is my life! I wish I have Aladdins Lamp, so that I can change my life story.... But when I'm looking forwards, I get it. "Air kalau di cincang takkan putus". Everyone have their problems and this make us strong and becomes motivated. I try to take whats positive within this, and one things I get is just forgive and forget! I just want to enjoy my life. I want make it success... When I'm trying to achieve it, gosh... its complicated! Well, I never stop climbing that stairs. I just need support from family not pressure! Hurm, since I have high self motivation, so I try to control my mentality about all of this problems... Yeah, I can ignore it. Just my life... I'll make it smooth....

>>Describing Me Trough Music<<

Love It!!!



Jazz for sure...

• Pure Mood- Dave Koz
• Romantic Saxophone- Kenny G
• I Could Get Used To It- Brian Culbertson
  
• Sunrise- Norah Jones

Others...

• Zero Gravity- David Archuleta
• Caruso- Il Divo
• When You Say You Love Me - Josh Groban
• I Believe- Fantasia Barino
• Listen To My Heart- Gareth Gates
• Angels Brought Me Here- Guy Sebastian
• Dreaming With A Broken Heart- John Mayer
• If Only For One Night- Luther Vandross
• Respect- Aretha Franklin
• Mariah Carey- Without You
• Invisible- Clay Aiken
• No Boundries- Kris Allen
• Asma Allah- Sami Yusuff
• Get Here-Justin Guarini
• After Tonight- Justin Nozuka
• Forever Love- Gary Barlow
• Please Dont Stop the Rain- James Morrison
• There You'll Be- Faith Hill
• Escape- Enrique Iglasias
• If Tomorrow Never Comes- Ronan Keating
• Ever Ever After- Carrie Underwood
• Crazy- Britney Spears
• Must Be Doing Something Right- Billy Currington
• Piano Man- Billy Joel
• Heaven- Bryan Adams
• Like A Star- Corrine Bailey Rae
• So Beautiful- Darren Hayes
• Top Of The World- Carpenters
• Sooner or Later- Duncan James
• Back At One- Brian Culbertson
• Pocketful of Sunshine- Natasha Bedingfield

Languages Songs...

Spanish

• Si Preguntan Por Mi- Alex Ubago
• La Intrusa- Emanuel
• Amor A La Mexicana- Thalia
• Tango- Shakira
• Imaginame Sin Ti- Luis Fonsi
• Bailamos- Enrique Iglasias
• Amiga Mia- Alejandro Sanz

Italian

• Vivime- Laura Pausini
• E Penso A Te- Andrea Faustini

Korean

• My Angels- Fly To The Sky
• Gaseum Apado- Hwanhee
  
• Last Farewell- Big Bang
• Again and Again- 2PM
• First Love-Paran
• No Body- Wonder Girls

Japanese

• Best Friends- Kiroro

Greek

• Eisai I Foni- Elena Paparizou
  
• This Is Our Night- Sakis Rouvas

Swedish

• Öppna din dörr- Tommy Nilsson
• Kung For En Dag- Magnus Uggla
• Sonja Aldén - Du Får Inte
• If Only You- Danny Saucedo
  

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I'm Sick!!!!

What Disease Is That???



Around this two month, I felt very unhealthy. I don't know why! So I guess there is must be something wrong or I'm having a disease. I just thought it so because I'd see everything about my metabolism.... Urination, defecation, sleep and wake up.... It's increase volume of urine n frequently urination. Every time I eat, its straightly need go to toilet. Defecation again and again. The urine looks very yellowish and the feces oso something wrong and i think its not proper digestion. There is must be increasing of urobilinogen. Thats mean my RBC didn't get enough oxygen. I oso had Insomnia but when i sleep then wakes up, its very very weak even after i had bath and watching tv....my vision very blur... I dont know why.




I realize this situation almost two weeks. I think its just today like this but when i wake up tomorrow, its happen again. So i guess there is something wrong about my body. I need medical check up but what would I say to doctor? It must take 2 to 3 days to diagnose.... urine test, blood test n so on.... If i'm lucky, i can back home with smile but if not, i sleep in the ward again. Please, i dont want it again... I know how it feel when i was admitted to hospital before due to dengue infection... Then if i admitted to hospital again, hows my intership? huh, i want finish it faster... So, what can i do now is control my healthy diets... Vitamin, vegetables n so on. I oso try to have exercises... Wish i'll ok soon... hope so!!!



ITS URINE TEST!!!!!! WISH I CAN DO THIS NOW USING MY URINE.

Life Synopsis: Part 3

My Life Getting Worse and Worst!!!! (It's Ecstasy)


I'm start to realize with everything happen to me. I know that I harmed myself mentally and physically. Its too late to reverse the time because I did it but it's not too late to change it. The only think I can do is motivate my mind and start to do something relevant. I can just accept this as moral stories and become aware with what I've done. I don't want to spoil this journey to achieve my success future. Well, I just pray to the God to show me the right way to refine this journey.

Just to motivate myself and maybe to all friends, I need to write this. I took "ecstasy" before!!!! I believe that my "BFF" exactly will never believing about this. It's about drugs!!! That's why I said, I harmed myself mentally and physically. I can't imagine how this happen to me just because one of my friend offer that pills. He said "this is good for your pimples". Then I asked "what pills is that?". He answered "this pills contained Vitamin A to Z" while he's cutted the pill into half part and gave me with mineral water. I'm not sure and exactly blur about this. So I just took it and swallowed it. After 15 minutes, I felt that I'm going to die! Fly away with rapid eye movement, difficulty in breathing, dizziness, weakness..... More than 30 minutes, I felt better!!! Thanx God. After that, he's offered me to try his "Ice" and I strictly rejected it!!!! Suddently, I felt very energetic and I know that is beneficial effect of that drugs. Well, I dont care with that beneficial effetcs, I care much with side effects.... When I back home, I think about it again and again and for sure I can't forget it forever. The only thing I did is I delete him from my memory because he's going to damage my future!

To all friends, please correctly choose your true friends because your true friends is your mirror. If they are unpleasant person, u also can be like that. I've chose the wrong person to be my friends. I made mistakes just because I chose wrongly and I harmed myself. Choose correctly and achieve your future successfully! This is my advice.... =)

BEWARE of This!!!!!!

{Careful + Hygine + Safety}

Guys... Take this Precaution!!!!! Jangan tau buat sex je but don't know everything!!! If u see this symptom growth on your genital part, faster to meet your DR. This is symptom of HPV (Human Papilloma Virus) infection. It's can growth on penis, scrotum, anal, and vagina. If u have this symptoms, practice safe sex because u can transmit the virus to your partner. If your partner is woman, its very dangerous because this virus can leads "Cervical Cancer". Beware of this virus. This is STD (sexual transmitted disease). Its very high risk infection to female but still can infect male. To male, this warts can disappears without treatment if your immunity very strong but better get your advice from DR. Its still ok to male because we can against it if our immunity really strong. If low, the warts actively develops and get ready for penile removal!!!!!

Here the picture of severe genital warts on penis:

To female, better request for Pap smear because cervical cancer may develops.
Its highly dangerous. Ask vaccine from doctor and request for PAP smear. Faster to treat it!!!!

Here the picture of severe genital warts on vagina:

To who's that practicing anal sex activity, careful with anal warts especially homosexual. Huh! Here the picture of anal warts:

Nowadays, people just know STD like Syphilis, Herpes and Gonorrhea. Almost all people dont know everything about HPV... Its about 70% of infections are gone in 1 year and 90% in 2 years. Don't spread it!!!! BEWARE!!!!!!!! This is my advice.... ;)

Life Synopsis: Part 2

=The Toughest Part of My Life=


This is really make me learn to be strong and respect my lovely, important and meaningful person in my life. I will remember this moment until the end of my life... Can u think what you will feel if your very meaningful person in your life never trust u? This is what happen to me. My lovely, important and meaningful person lost her trust towards me.... Dissappointed, frustrated, sad, nothing else can I figure out my feeling at this moment... I know, this is the hardest part of my life. Well, it's not just misunderstanding but it's more than that..... I crossed over the line!

Very hard to explain to her because she'll never accept it. I very know what I'm doing because I'm matured enough to think about evil and devil. So just let time past. Lets bygone be bygone..... One think I just can say, please trust and belive me...

I know she'll never open this site.... So, I just can pray and hope she will trust me forever because I'm her son... I love u much more than what u can see. I will not make this crisis happen again.... Sometimes lying is better than make others hurt..... ".::Sometimes it's better to be wrong about your motives than to listen to the truth::. -La Rochefoucauld-"

P/S: Please dont ever fighting with your mother because you dont even know how its feel... For me, its just happen and nothing can I figure out. Very hurting me.... Can you imagine what you feel when your mother called u "Rude Son".... My god, I can't accept it.... Well this all happen because of misunderstanding.... So, keep the relationship nicely... Keep trust each other....

+Without You+

Which Version is Your Choice?



This is the original version from Mariah Carey..... This is very technical vocal and tough song. I love this version...



This is italian version from Il Divo..... This is completely emotional when Sebastiaon Izambart cry when singing this song.... Il Divo is my fav singer!





This is Version of Season 3 X-factor winner by Leona Lewis.... This is really really great performance. I think, this is better than Mariah Carey but Mariah still nice for this song because this is her original top song...




This is Version of American Idol 1st runner up, Clay Aiken.... This is completely relax version... but still high vocal.... This version suitable for relaxing our mind....




This is my fav chart version of "Without You".... I've arrange all this version according to my fav version. Thousand apologize coz I can't upload video by Alexandra Burke. This is my ranking:

1. Mariah Carey
2. Il Divo
3. Leona Lewis
4. Alexandra Burke
5. Clay Aiken

This is my chart. Get listen to all this video and make your own chart. So, who is your favourite among all of this version? Decide now!

Life Synopsis : Part 1

++Much Obstacles in This Successful Journey++




While I'm doing this blog, I just sit at mamak stall when doing online stuff and start to think about my past n my future....... Rite now, 20 years old man in front of his PC full with dreams to be a doctor. This journey still long to achieve to that success tower.

When longer i'm living on this earth, to much sin I've done. Serously, it's so divinity thinking... I'm not trying to make any confessions about myself, but I just try to repentance my self.... Since I get infected with dengue in beginning of this year, I'm really afraid to think about died. I dont know why I'm saying like this.... Everytime I'm laying my head on the pillow, then it's hard to close my eyes and start thinking about my past, what i've done, about my sin, and what successful things i've done..... It's kind of nonsense..... but It's true dude!!!!

At this moment, I hate my old schoolmates....seriously!!! U know why? It's because they always underestimated on me. I know that they are not saying that but they must think about that sometimes. Now, no ones want call me, ask about me, say hi, n so on.... Thats so arrogant!!!!! Huh, they only get offer from UM, UKM, USM.....not Harvard or Oxford lor..... But I dont care about that, It's raise up my spirit and makes me brilliantly think that I'm gonna success soon...
Wait everybody!!!! When i get offer letter from Moscow Medical Academy Russia, you guys those my old schoolmates that I'll call first.... I wont let u guys underestimate me anymore.... But I'll let u guys proud of me.... Wait n see how It goes....

About my study, I'm in the right field which medical.... Thats what I want. I'm in the journey to arrive that success tower.... Everyone saying that "life is still long". But does anyone think that you will died tomorrow or after this? This is what i'm worried about... worried if I can't archieve my ambition... But we can just effort to get it rite? Then god will definite it.... As God says, "who have more effort, he will get it more...." So, let it goes nicely...


wait for the next life synopsis.....

Going To My Work Place Sooner or Later

Aku Nanti Seorang Doktor?

Hari ni memang penat yg teramat penat coz we are going to HKL n Blood Bank....
Everyone dah kene tuggu kat campus pkul 6.45a.m....
Setelah masa yang ditetapkan adalah begitu, so aku mengambil keputusan untuk terus berjaga sehingga 6.45a.m..... Dengan itu aku memulakan operasi berchatting secara besar-besaran....

Setelah subuh menjelma, aku pun bersiap-siap la nak ke campus...
Dengan mata yg begitu berat, aku pun bersiap dgn begitu kacak sekali....
hahahaha...(perasan lebey)....


Kitorg pun naik bas n bertolak dari Shah Alam ke KL.... Then sampai sana lebey kurang pukul 8a.m since jalan pun jamm....

Bile dah sampai HKL, semua orang pun dah ready nk start lecture...



Ktorg dengar briefing dari pegawai hospital n semua orang dah ready pakai Lab Coat....
So operasi menyerbu hospital pun bermula.... Pusing punyer pusing dalam hospital tu, kitaorg abis dekat pukul 2.00p.m... penat wooo...dah r tak dapat duduk lansung. Memang sakit giler kaki....

Ktorang rehat and lunch seketika... Bile dah ready, operasi menyerbu Pusat Darah Negara pulak.... haaaaaa....so weak n tired since i dont have enough sleep....



So briefing dari pegawai kat situ n operasi pun bermula.... Huh, Lecture sampai pukul 5.30p.m woooo....



Aku memang dah penat sangat sampai dah takde energy nak berdiri....
huh, so try jugak la control....



Then ktorg pun mula bertolak balik Shah Alam...
Sampai kat rumah ade la dalam pukul 7.00p.m....
So mmg rasa nak pengsan dah mase tu, tapi I try my best since this is my future career...
God willing... I hope so I'll archieve my ambition...
Only few months more to go, this is my destiny....
Bile dah masuk hospital tu, perasaan bangga dan semangat tu meningkat...
So tak lama lagi, semua nya akan terjawab... Berjayakah aku nanti sebagai seorang doktor????

+Happy Mother's Day+

=I Love U Mum=

" Wahai bonda, jutaan terima kasih ku ucapkan buatmu. Dirimu tidak pernah jemu menegur setiap kesilapan yang aku lakukan. Aku penuh kesilapan terhadapmu bonda. Terima kasih kerana dirimu aku lahir ke dunia ini. Dan kerana semangat mu juga aku masih berdiri disini dalam berusaha mendaki menara kejayaan. Jasamu begitu besar buat ku dan akan ku balas jasamu bonda. Kasihmu tiada berpenghujung. Setiap senyummu membuat kan aku lebih bersemangat untuk mencapai kejayaan itu. Dirimu selalu memberi inspirasi buat ku."

"Bersempena dengan hari ibu ini, jutaan maaf dan terima kasih yang tidak terhingga aku ucapkan diatas segalanya. Semoga dirimu sentiasa berada dalam keadaan yang sihat sejahtera dan selalu berbahagia."

"Fuck Day"

!!!Semalam Memang Sial!!!

U know hows my day become really fuckup????

Semalam 8hb May 2009.....

Exam start pkul 9.00a.m So aku mmg plan study then tknk tido malam tu pastu terus pegi exam. So aku tido jap pukul 11.00p.m sampai pkul 1.00a.m.... Then aku start study. Mase tengah study, aku memang pening n rase really nk demam. So semua bende yang aku bace pun mcm masuk tk masuk je..... I just think that i need to go somewhere nk ambik udara. So aku call Iffa n ajak dia gi study kat Xtreme Park. Kitaorng study kat KFC tu sampai semua orang dh tkde. Punye tk sedar dah pkul 6 ktorg duk ctu... Then org dah azan subuh dah....

Ktorg pun blik perdana. Bile dh sampai umah, aku rase ngantuk la plak. So aku pun landing atas katil n pasang alarm pkul 7.30a.m.... Bile alarm dh bunyi pkul 7.30a.m, aku bgun n tgok my housemate aku dh siap. Then he told me that die nk pegi kolej awal ckit. So dengan mate yg masih berat, aku pun trus tekan alarm tu pkul 7.45am....hahahaa... punyer la hampeh, aku terjaga pkul 8.45a.m.... Giler ape????? exam pkul 9.00a.m woi!!!!!

Nahhhh...ambik ni....

Dalam mase 15 minit aku siap then trus naik cab pegi kolej. Then dengan kelam kabut n gabra aku cari bilik exam. Semua yg aku study terus lupe.... Bile masuk bilik exam, aku tgok jam kat depan dh lewat 15 minit.... Nasib baik tk lewat 30 minit. Klau tk dh tk bley ambik exam...huhuh...

Then dah abis exam, aku gi teman Iffa renew lesen die kat JPJ Padang jawa.

Punyer kelam kabut haritu... Cari parking pun tak jumpe... semua bende jadi kelam. Mmg semua jadi tk betul....Huh, dah r kluar salah pintu. Tak pasal2 kene warning dengan guard tuh!!!!

Nahhh...ambik lagi!!!!

Dh renew tu, abg die sruh hantar gi Sunway Piramid plak. My next exam pkul 4.00p.m.... Tunggu abg die n girl abg die siap sampai pkul 2.30p.m tuh... Bile nk gi sunway tu pulak jalan jamm.... Then sampai sane lebih kurang pkul 3.00p.m....

So aku ajak Iffa lunch kat ctu terus since our perut pun tengah ber acid.... Iffa pun ajak makan kat Old Town Coffee.... punyer la excited nk mkan, kitorg pun lupe kereta parking kat mne... huhuh....

Lepas dh abis mkan... kitaorg punye la gabra cari kereta kat mne.... Huh, ade exam tapi macam tk ambik exam je.... Then kitaorg tersalah naik lif 2 kali..... punya la cari kereta sampai pkul 3.45p.m....then terus pecut nk sampai shah alam... ktorg punye la redah jalan sampai banyak gile kereta yg hon...tpi mmg ktorg tk peduli pun coz ktorg dh mmg lambat sgt....

Then i told iffah, "Iffah, we are really not ok today".... such a sucks day u know...

everything goes wrong.....then bile dh sampai kolej.... we are late 20 minutes...

Damn!!!! Bile msok bilik exam,semua org tgok kitorg...mmg muka lambat btul...

Mmg panas berapi je rase. Tk pasal-pasal aku jerit krg.... Dah r semua yg baca abis lupe!!!!!

Anyways, this is pengajaran for us....

The Only Video That Touched My Heart....

>>>Chicken A La' Carte by Ferdinand Dimadura<<<

In February 2006, at the 56th Berlin International Film Festival,
Filmmakers were invited to join a short film competition on the theme:
Food, Taste and Hunger....

3,600 filmmaker from around the world joined the competition.

But only 32 films were chosen to be screened at the Berlinale Telent Campus.

Here the winner short film that I attached.

Please take a look. This really give you repentance.....

On 22th april 2009, 11:22 p.m.....
One of my friend from my ym list forward the URL to me that titled
The Berlin Short Film Winner - Chicken A La' Carte....
So I think that is interesting.... So I opened the URL and wait the video loading...
Once I have watched to that video, my gosh!!!! I really can feel it...
I know that someone who is really prodigal must be touched when think about that video. I'm really spendthrift since I always have my meal at McD n Burger King....
Thats makes me really think about "their" fate.....
So guys, please take a look to that video and think about "them"....
I'm sure u will touched and feel it. So this can motivate your self....

Dah 10 hari tapi frust lagi....

Hari ni 21hb april 2009.....
Genap 10 hari concert David Archuleta di Malaysia berlalu. 11hb april 2009.
Tapi aku memeng sedih giler sebab tk dapat pegi concert tu.... Mmg frust yg amat la....
Mane taknye, aku dh cuba mcm2 nk dptkan ticket tu tpi tak berjaya....
Erm, mungkin tkde rezeki la kut.... Tpi bile la lagi David Archuleta akan dtg Malaysia?
Ntah la.... Ape2 pun, aku tetap menunggu David lagi...

Thanx la kpd korang yg upload video David in Malaysia kat youtube tu...
Ade la jugak ubat frust aku.... Ni tak sabar menunggu hari esok...
Mane taknye, 22hb.... David Archuleta ade kat dlm American Idol season 8...
David is back to Idol stage!!!!....



Ape2 pun, lagu2 David memang gempak punye.....
Ni kepada peminat2 david, masuk la networking ni....


Visit DAVID ARCHULETA

Who's My Fav Celebrities?

Here we go....

My Fav Male Singers

• Absolutely!!! Il Divo.
• Ronan Keating.
• Alejandro Sanz.
• David Archuleta.
• Gary Barlow.
• Jon B.
• Duncan James.
• Lee Ryan.
• Leon Jackson.
• Billy Curington.
• Weslife.
• Fly To The Sky (FTTS).
• N many more.......

My Fav Female Singers

• Mariah Carey.
• Carrie Underwood.
• Celine Dion.
• Colbie Caillat.
• Natasha Bedingfield.
• Alexandra Burke.
• Britney Spears.
• Marie Digby.
• Leona Lewis.
• M2M.
• Christina Aguilera.
• Diana Ross.
• Dolly Parton.
• Jojo.
• Jeniffer Hudson.
• Aretha Franklin.
• Diana Krall.
• N many more.......
  

My Fav Actors

• Leonardo Dicaprio.
• Brad Pitt.
• Hugh Dancy.
• Johnny Depp.
• Will Smith.
• Kevin Zegers.
• Hayden Christensen.
• N many more.....

My Fav Actress

• Absolutely!!! Kate Winslet.
• Jessica Alba.
• Cate Blanchett.
• Anne Hathaway.
• Queen Latifah.
• Eva Green.
• Salma Hayek.
• Cameron Diaz.
• Mila Kunis.
• Nicole Kidman.
• N many more......

My Fav Jazzie

• Dave Koz.
• Kenny G.
• Brian Culbertson.
• Joshua Bell.
• N many more....

My Celebrity Look-Alike

Here is my celebrities. Then who is your celebrities???